I promise to only cry about this thing ONE last time...

I don't like the rules. Can I rewrite them? I want the piece of my heart that I gave to you back. I will gladly return yours, that is if I ever really had it. No I don't hate you. But thanks to you I'm jaded. I want closure, that intangible asset that everyone experiencing pain requests. I know that I will never be made whole and now I'm beginning to realize that this chapter will never actually have an end. You see I can't erase the memories and I can't change the facts. I loved you... still do; but you didn't and still don't appreciate it. You exploited my kindness as though it were a weakness. You preyed on my vulnerabilities. My transparency became your weapon of choice. And although the thoughts have crossed my mind, I just can't muster up the energy to do you the way you have done me.

My vow is to only cry about this once more. I doubt it will erase my pain or feelings of victimization. But here are the facts: 1. Everything that you have to use against me I gave it to you, so I'm to blame. 2. I'm no longer looking for you to acknowledge your wrongs. 3. And although this experience has been painful, I needed it to get me where I'm supposed to be. So... thank you!